So, this is good-bye, then.
A farewell to the kisses and the hugs,
And the midnight drinks, and the ice cream fights.
My fingers will miss the curls of your head,
My ears, your weird snores, which reminded
Me of kittens on a train.
I guess my butter will last longer;
There will always be enough bread.
And I will not have to worry about my whites
Getting red by an intrusive sock,
Forgotten, some how, in the pile of my delicates.
Such a short word.
Good-bye to the musical sing-alongs,
You the Phantom, I, the Lion King.
Cheerio to the evening embrace in
Front of the blue light of the TV.
And it turns out that hurt does not
Discriminates between the sinner and
The saint, the wrong-doer and
The victim weeping behind the door.
Big boys do cry after all.
And I have no idea of what to say.
I was weak, I was cruel, I was drunk,
The music was too loud, I felt
Lonely, you were away, it was just a dance
And then I fell from grace.
I want to mend your broken heart,
Our shattered lives, our smashed home,
Thrown like a Christmas globe against
The hard boards of my stupidity.
You cannot stay, I understand.
I would leave if I were in your place.
And yet I ask, I am asking:
Please stay and waive your claim to
A righteous good-bye.
I do not know what promises to make.
All I see is that my soul is twisting
And howling, flagellating itself with
The absence of your love,
imploring, begging: do not go.
Do not cast me away, do not say good-bye
To the shared years for minutes of a mistake.
I am more than that night.
We are more than a misstep, an error,
A betrayal, a moment of madness.
You are the moon to my dark sky.
I was once the cherry of your cake, you said,
The one thing, unique thing, exceptional thing
That made you complete.
Let this super nova evolve into a big bang,
A new beginning, a new chance.
Let me hold you tight as you work through
Your grief; clutch me strongly as I shed my old skin
and become the possibility
Once reflected in your eyes.
Let me try. Let me be the she of your dreams.
Allow me to heal, you and me.
Relinquish your upright adieu
And dare to live the promise of our lives.
Together. Two in one.
Stay. Tonight. Tomorrow and always.
And waive away the righteous good-bye.