JUST FOR TODAY

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Just for today  I will get up again,

Dust my knees once more.

I will forgive myself for

Breaking my essence like

A stamped-on shell,

Cracked to the core.

And for today I will clear my eyes.

I will believe in fairies and talking stars;

That I can make it; that I can fly.

That mercy is there for me,

Born from the depths of my heart,

Where I am loved, purely, as I am.

And just for today, I will shine,

Shamelessly, joyfully, in

The night sky of my life.

And I’ll have dreams, high and might,

Where all possibilities already are,

And I need to prove nothing,

No excuses to validate my existence,

For I am worthy, today,

I deserve all and every good things,

Today, I will love myself, today,

I will cherish every quirkiness of my soul

And rise, up, to a place of light

Deep within. And I will no anger, nor worry.

I will trust, bloom, flourish.

Just for today I will embrace myself.

Every day of all the days

Where there is a today, I

Will adore who I am.

That’s my commitment from now on.

Just for today.

When it comes to myself.

I will love, love and love.

And then rise.

 

 

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Rise

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Rise.

I rise,

From my knees, from my bondage,

I rise,

Tall and mighty,

I rise,

Like the lark in the morning,

The nightingale at night,

Singing my song,

I rise.

Poor, lonely, even ugly,

I rise,

Oppressed, broken, destroyed,

I rise

And become the sun and the stars

And every flower that ever bloomed,

Bloomed first in my heart,

For I held on to my dreams when

The darkness kicked and bit me, I

Held them tight.

And now I rise.

To a new day that has my name,

My face, my still timid smile.

My day.

And on this day I give out my hand

To you my sister, and tell you,

Let’s rise.

Tall and high.

Rise.

Lover

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She smelled of peaches: juicy, fresh peaches,

Dewey from the early morning dance,

A wake of fuzz and firm and soft to the touch.

 

Green

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I like the colour green,

The fresh, bright green of the

Hills I grew up in,

A spring green, the green of baby

Lambs jumping in the meadows,

The green of dreams, impossible,

As the sea green edging the blue

Ocean before the land claims

The space -the natural

Homes of mermaids, some

Would say, or playground,

Where they would sit and sing

Dressed in green algae and

Silvery-green fish tails -but I digress.

I like the colour green,

Coconut green as the hills

I grew up in.

They are black and red today, those hills.

Black by fire, red by death.

No ancient house stands to tell

My story and games; the garlands

I made for the Spring festival; the

Green ones I weaved to crown

My hair, as I pretended to be the

Sea green princess sitting by

The greenish pond.

It is brown, now, the pond.

No one jumps into it anymore.

My house had a green door,

Emerald green, decorated with studs.

They broke it. They burned down the house.

They broke us.

And left dark colours in their wake.

And for a time that felt like years,

We just lingered by, phantoms over the wrecked land.

And then the green came back.

Timid, shyly, unsure if we had enough soul in

Us to welcome it; to work with it; to make it grow.

and expand. The top of the hills is tar and scarlet still,

But the foot is covered in apple green, and rice green,

And lettuce green and avocado green and life green,

And the houses are being erected again, rebuilt, and

In our new home the door is green,

Like a jewel on a queen, outlined with studs,

And we are afraid no more.

Protected by the fresh promise of green,

Of these hills. in which I grew up.

 

 

Caribbean Nights

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My mother used to hum when she

Brushed my hair, even sing sometimes.

On balmy Caribbean nights she

Would do it on the white wooden veranda,

The echoing sea serenading us with a lullaby

Of singing mermaids and dancing starfish.

She was calm on those nights, my mother.

Her face would relax to a beautiful smoothness

And I would see the girl she had once been.

She could love me fully at times like this.

Just as I was.

She would forget about rules and the “have tos”

That chained her during the day, and turned

Her into a nagging loom of dos and don’ts.

The wind was salty and fresh and soft,

On those Caribbean nights.

She would sit on a rocking chair, I on the floor,

And she would brush gently the nest of my hair,

Turning each wiry string into spun silk.

She would talk about days past, about games,

Her first kiss. She would be silent at times,

The only sounds being the wind, the sea, her hum,

The drumming of my heart at peace, wishing

Sunrise would never come and the night,

To be endless, my contentment to last forever.

She is gone now, my mother.

Our love affair was a rollercoaster of

Bitter sweet feelings and demands.

But I have those nights, in our big

White house, resembling a hen dowsing

By the sea, to remind me, that with

All her shadows and mine, she loved me,

The best way she knew how.

And I loved her right back.

 

Sentenced

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So I must die young,

So young I can almost fit in a cupped hand.

So young my eyes cannot understand the light,

For all I known if the balmy, pinkish dark.

And I’m not good enough for a chance,

To prove myself, to rise, high,

And touch the stars forbade to me

Because I will not be born a man.

I am just dust, dirt, a girl.

No silken cot will welcome me,

No warm bosom, no soft breath

Over my head, as I stretch my hand

And tangle a lock of hair with my tiny fingers.

And I must be sacrificed to give

A boy a chance to take what is mine,

Denied by those who ought to love me

Because, no matter how perfect I may be,

I won’t grow to be a man.

So I am to die, young,

So young, mum, you could

Have cupped the whole of me in your hands.

 

 

Fly

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She is ready to take off,

I know it. Her wings have been

Unfolding like a rose in the summer,

As she dreams of adventures

Far away. From me. Soon the invitation

Will arrive and she’ll scream with joy,

Ready to stand tall and take flight.

She’s ready to eat the world;

To tango with life; to champion

Her cause; to go into the sea of existence

And sail to her own enchanted isles;

Slay her personal monsters;

Get lost in the eyes of a lover

And float in the sense

Of uniqueness of those who

Taste freedom for the first time.

Yet, all I can think of is that

From scratched knees,

She will eventually graduate to a broken heart,

To kicks and burns from the friend she thinks

Life will always be. And I may not be there

To kiss the bruise, the cut, the tear,

She laughs at my fears,

Her laughter like a crystal chandelier

Touched by the wind. She’s packed, she’s ready

And she needs no silliness from me.

So I hug her and let her go, out into the world,

Her new wings expanding wide.

And without the slightest hesitation,

My innocent brave girl bids good-bye and flies.

 

Number One

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So this is how it is,

How you cut the pie,

How you eat the cake,

How you play the game.

You refuse to be satisfied.

You don’t accept crumbs,

Second best, plan B, option two.

You are in it to be number one.

Adored, cherished, respected,

The reason he gets up every morning,

The last thought he has every night.

If not, it’s good-bye. As simple as that.

Never, ever be satisfied with less,

Nor accept a thoughtless caress,

A frosty kiss, a sharp word,

A mindless farewell. Never,

Ever accept a stony look, an

Accidental push, an acidic comment

About your waist. If you are not

His goddess, find another temple

In which to shine, even if the only

One who lights candles is yourself.

For a goddess is never satisfied with

Less than complete adoration, where

All that she is it’s behold in

the perfection bestowed

By the eyes of love.

 

 

Roar

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Roar, oh child, born in the night

Of oppression and bondage.

Roar high, yelling out your pain,

As you wiggle and scar your

Wrists against the heavy chains

Place upon you. because of your gender,

A danger for some, so afraid of your

Greatness that they build boxes to lock

You in in, bend you in, break you in,

Make you small and twisted, half of what

You could be, so they can stand tall

And be no afraid of all you would be,

Had you been born free.

So roar, child, high and might,

And awaken the uncaring and the ignorant

The fearful and the mad.

Give them no peace, no truce,

No quiet place where they can forget

The abuse of you. Embed yourself in their

Eyes, in their ears, in their mind, your

Roar demanding more than a passing nod,

Claiming a breaking of the endless night,

A dawn without chains where you

Are free to choose, to decide,

To fully embody the wonder of

Yourself with all your possibilities.

 

A Kiss

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It starts with an ethereal wisp,

A warm breath exhaled from lips

Close enough to share the same air.

Then there is the touch,

Light and soft. And the taste:

A brief visit by the tongue,

A wet stroke over the silky inside.

Then there is the entwine,

The wrestling, the lapping,

The fusing, the fire, the rocking,

Side to side, the stretching of

Mouths, the sliding over throats,

Hairs tangling over fingers, lashes

Brushing against each other,

Cheeks hollowing in, glistening

Faces, slightly puffing, gasping for air,

The hot skin turning red, as the lips

That started it all and brought the heavens

Into the deep with a wisp, a taste, a touch.

A kiss